{"id":5197,"date":"2010-06-17T13:49:39","date_gmt":"2010-06-17T21:49:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.zoe.browdy.net\/?p=5197"},"modified":"2010-06-17T13:49:39","modified_gmt":"2010-06-17T21:49:39","slug":"one-year-ago-feeling-sentimental","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.zoe.browdy.net\/?p=5197","title":{"rendered":"One year ago: Feeling sentimental"},"content":{"rendered":"

Exactly one year ago, I shared<\/a> my feelings here about the baby’s pending arrival. Noting that I was excited and anxious but also a little sad and nostalgic, I talked about feeling bad that Zoe would soon have to share our attention\/love with someone else. And in an earlier post<\/a>, I shared even more of my worries: <\/p>\n

What if I don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t love [the baby] as much as Zoe? (And: how can I possibly love her as much as Zoe?)… What if Zoe feels abandoned, unloved and\/or sad after her sister\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s arrival? What if I never get to spend quality time with her? What if I always feel a little guilty for disturbing our happy family of three?<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

One year later, I’m happy to report that most of my these worries melted away soon after Avery’s arrival. Zoe welcomed her sister and I was nuts over Avery from the get-go, and I’ve never felt bad about changing our family from three to four. When I watch Zoe proudly show off Avery to her friends or hear Avery laugh in excitement when Zoe enters the room, I know that we’ve provided each girl with a special gift! <\/p>\n

But while I’m generally happy these days, I must admit to feeling a little sad and nostalgic this week. In just two days, Avery will be one year and I find myself (again) reminiscing about the days past. In a weepy moment, I told Q that it was difficult to think about a full year – and a very special one at that – of Avery’s life being over.<\/p>\n

Q asked me if I felt bad about Zoe getting older, too. “Not really,” I answered honestly, “Because she keeps getting better and better.” Ever the optimist, Q pointed out that the same would be true of Avery, and I should feel excited about Avery’s future instead of feeling sad about her past. He’s right of course, and I’m sure I’ll get to that place; for now, though, this sentimental mom may shed a tear or two over the 8-pounder she first met 363 days ago.<\/p>\n

-M<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Exactly one year ago, I shared my feelings here about the baby’s pending arrival. Noting that I was excited and anxious but also a little sad and nostalgic, I talked about feeling bad that Zoe would soon have to share our attention\/love with someone else. And in an earlier post, I shared even more of […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[56],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5197","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-47-two-kids-june10"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.zoe.browdy.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5197","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.zoe.browdy.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.zoe.browdy.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.zoe.browdy.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.zoe.browdy.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5197"}],"version-history":[{"count":18,"href":"http:\/\/www.zoe.browdy.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5197\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5221,"href":"http:\/\/www.zoe.browdy.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5197\/revisions\/5221"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.zoe.browdy.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5197"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.zoe.browdy.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5197"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.zoe.browdy.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5197"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}